Jan 11

Photos of today:

Breakfast: nothing

Lunch: tastea popcorn chicken

Dinner: irvine pog sichuan impression kung pao chicken + spicy wontons + omomo strawberry yakult

Feelings: another content day ISH. i had class in the morning and then went with hayden to get covid tested and stuff. we had a massive argument in the car while it was charging because he said that i couldn't understand his feelings because he was stressed and i was only focused on my own feelings since i was upset that he couldn't wake up to fulfill our plans for the morning. i made him cry and felt like the worst person in the world. i just don't know how to improve. i felt like he would get tired of me and not want to be with me anymore. i don't know how to control my emotions, nor do i know how to not let my own feelings go and focus on other people's. he needed help today and i didn't step back and understand the bigger picture. i just didn't let it go and focus on caring for him. and i know it was wrong, but in the moment, i was so upset that i neglected to do what i should do as a good partner. i also got upset because i was envious and jealous from yesterday. i don't know how to tell him i get jealous of his mentee?

anyways, we vibed and things slowly got better as we cooled down, and we went to get tested at LB airport. we did a rapid test bc they only do pcr if your rapid is positive. we both tested neg yay. we then picked up yaya and got tastea because i literally ate nothing all day but two grapes. then i went home and then we went back out to have a date in irvine, which was really nice. i don't know how to describe how i feel around him, but he makes me feel so warm inside.

we also did miracle berry, which is like... super pog. lemons taste AMAZINGGGGGGG

overall okay day! started off trash but redeemed itself.