hannah's food log 2022

Photos from today:  literally the ugliest photo ever of me but i don’t know how else to capture how terrible i feel right now  Breakfast: oatmeal Lunch: half a veggie sandwich Dinner: Feelings: today is so bad i literally don't know what to do. you know that feeling when you have pain in your chest because you just feel so empty and sad and you're just unsure with how to keep going? i really just want to go home and cry and be held by hayden or mom or someone because i feel so alone and i just want to be comforted and for someone to listen to me. i feel really hopeless right now and everything that has happened today has just been so negative. i tried to go to the gym and ended up getting injured or something when doing lat pulldowns and i only got to do two exercises. i am feeling so overwhelmed right now with a midterm next week and taiko rehearsals for literally hours every day and now im injured and i feel alone and i just want to disappear even though its cowardly. i don...

 Hi blog, hi hayden, hi future hannah.  i've been really busy and really behind, so i'm going to try to catch up with some notable things that have happened this first half of february.  first off, i've been exercising more consistently, which is a huge plus. i'm trying my best to focus on progress and consistency rather than immediate results this time around, and im trying to eat healthier too.  i've been going home every weekend to spend time with hayden and family because i'm still having a really hard time being here. i'm really busy with tasa and taiko and (new) pre-pa club, but instead of making me happier, they're just acting as distractions. at the end of the day, once everything is done, i still feel alone and empty and hopeless. and i don't know what to do. superbowl happened and LA won. bengals stayed on campus and forced bruinwalk to be closed and also woke us up at 6 am with their practice music. very happy rams won. lunar new year also...

Photos from today:  Breakfast: oatmeal + bluebs, sausage, egg, potato Lunch: nuffing Dinner:  Feelings: WAHHHHH can't believe january is already over. that's absolutely insane, but thank god. woke up at like 7:30 to go to the gym and do my arm day workout. i got there and it was soooo packed, so unfortunate. i did free weights today though, so it wasn't too bad for me bc i didn't touch the machines. i finished my workout and then went back up to the room to get lizzie and to change, and then we went to de neve for breakfast. after, we ate in the room and i organized some things on my desk before taking a nap. it was supposed to only be 45 mins (10:30-11:15), but i ended up waking up at 12:30 -_-. so much for short nap. it's okay though because i was productive this morning. while we were eating, lizzie and i realized that our meal plans are the same even though we came back halfway through the quarter, soooo, i am over by like 50 swipes. pls, hayden, come get food, ...