hannah's food log 2022

 Hi blog, hi hayden, hi future hannah.  i've been really busy and really behind, so i'm going to try to catch up with some notable things that have happened this first half of february.  first off, i've been exercising more consistently, which is a huge plus. i'm trying my best to focus on progress and consistency rather than immediate results this time around, and im trying to eat healthier too.  i've been going home every weekend to spend time with hayden and family because i'm still having a really hard time being here. i'm really busy with tasa and taiko and (new) pre-pa club, but instead of making me happier, they're just acting as distractions. at the end of the day, once everything is done, i still feel alone and empty and hopeless. and i don't know what to do. superbowl happened and LA won. bengals stayed on campus and forced bruinwalk to be closed and also woke us up at 6 am with their practice music. very happy rams won. lunar new year also...

Photos from today:  Breakfast: oatmeal + bluebs, sausage, egg, potato Lunch: nuffing Dinner:  Feelings: WAHHHHH can't believe january is already over. that's absolutely insane, but thank god. woke up at like 7:30 to go to the gym and do my arm day workout. i got there and it was soooo packed, so unfortunate. i did free weights today though, so it wasn't too bad for me bc i didn't touch the machines. i finished my workout and then went back up to the room to get lizzie and to change, and then we went to de neve for breakfast. after, we ate in the room and i organized some things on my desk before taking a nap. it was supposed to only be 45 mins (10:30-11:15), but i ended up waking up at 12:30 -_-. so much for short nap. it's okay though because i was productive this morning. while we were eating, lizzie and i realized that our meal plans are the same even though we came back halfway through the quarter, soooo, i am over by like 50 swipes. pls, hayden, come get food, ...

Photos of today:                                                                 Breakfast: frozen mango chunks (1 cup) Lunch: harissa avocado bowl from cava Dinner: epicuria: salad, lamb shank + potatoes, broccolini Feelings: today was meh. got up super early to go to campus by 9 in order to take photos for taiko at the botanical garden. mom and dad waited in the car while photos occurred. this is where it all went :/ we were instructed to wear black pants because newbs don't have blacks yet, but all i had were black jeans, so i wore those. apparently, that was the wrong choice. kelly, who i never think likes me, kept glaring at me and like looking at me up and down, and that made me super self-conscious and uncomfortable. she then told me to change into the black taiko pants that they had extr...

Photos from today:  Breakfast: half a banana pancake from dad Lunch: some costco hotdog with mom Dinner: NEW YEAR'S HOT POT Feelings: today was p good too, but i'm so sad to leave tomorrow, making it bittersweet. i woke up today and was greeted with pancakes made by dad, so i ate half of one so he didn't get sad. i then went to costco with mom after she finished her work, and we spent $212 :0 i got underwear, frozen mango chunks, a pair of leggings, and keto coconut trail mix pog. after, mom and i shared a costco beef hot dog (diet today is trash, ik, idc). once hayden was done with his class meeting project thing, i went over there to do some weightlifting exercise @ home gym. i think i did pretty well today, if i do say so myself. it was just partly cloudy but like, bright?? so on the bench, the sun kept getting in my eyes and it hurt my eyes a lot. after, i went home to have early lunar new year hot pot with tomato base with family. it was so so yummy, and i ate so many ...

Photos from today:  Breakfast: kirkland protein bar- chocolate brownie  Lunch: nuffing Dinner: mian chengdu noodle + tomato and beef stew Feelings: woke up really early today to hang out with hayden until he had to go to work, so we just took a nap for like two hours or so. it was so nice to just be in each other's arms, and every time i am with him, i fall asleep so easily because he makes me feel so safe. after, when he had to go to work, i went to target to get some period supplies. i just hung out at home after that until i got picked up again so we could pick up yaya. also i had to poop so much because pp in booty does that, and i was in so much poop pain.  but, guess what?!!?!?!? SOGURT NOVELITES CAME IN FOR A CHECK-IN OR SOMETHING BUT THEY ALL LOOK SO CUTE I LOVE THEM. it made me so happy. we picked up yaya and then got dropped off to eat dinner until later when the three of us planned to have a movie night. we had mian for dinner pog, and it was pretty good. tomat...

Photos from today:  Breakfast: nuffing Lunch: nuffing Dinner: SHUSHIIIIII AGAINNNNN Feelings: Today was guud. i woke up earlier to finish my pset (i finished) and my lab report for physics. i literally hate that lab with all of my existence, it is so terrible. after, i just chilled and vibed in bed until hayden was able to pick me up so we could pick up yaya. after we picked up yaya, we got sunright :0 because it just opened in cerritos and yaya had never tried it before. i got the sunright fruit tea, and it was really pog. afterwards, we went back home because of physics discussion ugh, and i did that. i was so proud of myself though; I FINISHED THE WHOLE THING REALLY QUICKLY AND GOT IT ALL RIGHT!!! if only that energy was brought on the exam -__- oh well. after, i changed outfits and hayden picked me up again to meet jamie and trevin and jedric and ranson at magic touch (2nd time in two weeks lol). it was nice to see them, and i really enjoy spending time with them. they're reall...