Jan 30 - D-Day

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Breakfast: frozen mango chunks (1 cup)

Lunch: harissa avocado bowl from cava

Dinner: epicuria: salad, lamb shank + potatoes, broccolini

Feelings: today was meh. got up super early to go to campus by 9 in order to take photos for taiko at the botanical garden. mom and dad waited in the car while photos occurred. this is where it all went :/ we were instructed to wear black pants because newbs don't have blacks yet, but all i had were black jeans, so i wore those. apparently, that was the wrong choice. kelly, who i never think likes me, kept glaring at me and like looking at me up and down, and that made me super self-conscious and uncomfortable. she then told me to change into the black taiko pants that they had extra of, but i was like ??? where??? this is the botanical garden? IN PUBLIC? i looked confused, and then ashley robinson came up and was like no dw about it you're fine, i don't know where you would change anyways, so that made me feel a little better, but now, the whole time, i felt super insecure and uncomfortable. i also didn't have my hachimaki or tekko because they were IN MY DORM THAT I COULDN'T ACCESS YET, and kelly just looked -_- the whole time when i asked to borrow. sorry???? anyways, that was so painful and gruesome, and even when interacting with the rest of the newbs, i just wanted to cry and go home because i was just so uncomfortable. after, i went back to the car, and we drove to sproul to take my covid test in covel commons before i could move in. result was neg (ugh), so we carried things up to sproul. i forgot my room pin oops, so i had to get that from the front dest first. embarassingggg. mom and dad helped me put clothes away and organize things on my desk, and then we went to westwood to get cava. mom and dad liked it a lot, but i was sad the whole time still because moving in has been really hard for me. we then got junbi for yaya and hayden bc he was babysitting her in case she did anything bad while she was alone at home. mom got the rose matcha too , and i got yuzu dragonfruit green tea. yaya got rose matcha and hayden got rose water tea. we parked at target, so dad got bubly sparkling water in order to get parking validated. they then dropped me off, and i started crying because i was just so sad. i called yaya and hayden immediately after, and they talked to me while i cleaned and stuff, which helped. lizzie and kat came back around the same time, so i talked to them and helped them move things in. later, i called some psychology offices to try to schedule an appointment, but none of them picked up because it was sunday, so i just have to wait to see if any call me back. i was super productive in terms of work; i finished my pset for physics (started and finished today), did my prelab and prelab quiz for ls23l, and i planned out my week. for dinner, i went with kat and lizzie to get food from epic; the line was crazy because theyre serving students now because of covid, so it took a lot longer than it usually would have.it was pretty okay; the lamb was hard to chew. i showered sort of early and then talked to hayden to figure out my workout plan, and then got in bed because i plan on waking up early to gym tomorrow. overall, meh day. i really miss everyone at home.