Jan 3

 Photos of me today: 

Breakfast: Char siu bao

Lunch: Uhhhhh.... like 2 tablespoons pretzels and blueberries.

Dinner: Some pasta (maybe 1/2 cup?) and salad with carrots, mushroom, peppers, and mixed greens. Also featuring the godly cilantro dressing from Trader Joe's.

Feelings: Woke up today in a good mood. Went to Target with Hayden at like 9 AM to get some necessary ~provisions~ and then returned home. Hayden slept in my bed while I took my first class (ew) (LS23L) and then after, we + Yaya went to Orobae in Irvine to get tea. I felt triggered or something in line for that because of what happened late last night; I discovered that I could barely fit into any of my old sleep pants that used to be oversized last year :( I didn't end up getting anything, but Hayden told me that he would drive me there eventually when I feel better about myself. I felt like poo after we got back because I was feeling depresso because of school. It didn't get any better because I had to go to classes from 3-5 PM. I'm glad I was able to spend time with family and Hayden after class though. That's why I hope that classes stay online for longer than just two weeks. I ate dinner and then gymed with Hayden. I was trying really hard tonight but I don't think Hayden thought so, so that made me a bit sad too. I had a Kyodo Taiko meeting, and it was okay, but for some reason, I have no excitement about returning to play in person. But now (11 PM) I'm about to shower and then do some graphics for TASA and wait for Hayden so that I can talk to him before I sleep. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow or any days of this quarter.