Jan 9

Photos of me today: 

Breakfast: hamandeats oatmeal again hehe

Lunch: nothing lol

Dinner: char siu bao, a bit of indomie noodles, and mostly salad with italian dressing

Feelings: Today was the day i was supposed to move back on campus. thank god that i'm still at home. today was an okay day. i woke up and my hair was wavy because of my new hair car method where i don't try to brush it and make everything flat. i made the oatmeal at the same time that dad found bugs in the pancake mix. fun. i basically cleaned my room the whole day. it looks pretty good and tidy now, which is so much more relaxing than having a messy room where things are everywhere and all out of wack. i cleaned and waited around for hayden to wake up to gym, but i felt sad all day. like i really just wanted a hug but everyone was either busy or not awake. that made me kind of bummed. hayden woke up and then took yaya and i to get boba, but i wasn't going to get anything. being there kind of triggered me again, like what happened when we went to orobae, so i had to go sit in the car. i really need to work on myself because this is not fun, being sad around food i want to eat or drink. anyways, then we went to the gym but couldn't get in at first because the gym won't let you in 30 mins before it closes (5pm on sundays). we got in because someone let us in, and we basically just did squats, but i did some adductions and abductions as well. we then went to the buena park charging station so he could charge the car before his drive to azusa tomorrow and i could get a curl hair care product. i went home and ate dinner and then finished cleaning my room, and now i'm waiting until hayden is done from his league game so we can work and then talk. i love him. i'm also motivated to get fit with some cardio workout videos i found since my gym membership ends tomorrow. i have to find a way to stay in shape. anyways, okay day.